It engulfs me, it haunts me and it hurts me. As I linger alone on this earth, my heart deteriorates daily, with every second of thought and I do not know where to turn to. Many fears surround me such as being judged, such as being accused, my heart tries to fight it but for now weakness takes over me. I keep trying and others think it is easy to state opinions, however the real thing in itself is an everlasting torture that can only fade but never fully. Seeking support either helps or does not help, however I know in my heart it will always be there forever, the pain, the wondering, the curiosity and the guilt.
